Cont Finding Motivation

Last week I set 3 fitness/ health goals for myself:

3 Fitness/ Health Goals

1. Get up and run 3 times a week, starting July 15th 

2. Strength train with Garrett ( Strength work, and Oly lifts)

3. Eat clean healthy foods, limit eating out to once a week

Sadly, last week I came down with a horrible sinus infection, and what I believe to be the beginnings of bronchitis ( I have not had the chance to get back into the doctor, since diagnosed with a sinus infection for an official opinion, but I get it so frequently, I pretty much know what is wrong.) So, I took my antibiotics and the refill the doctor prescribed, I am making sure I am taking my Zyrtec twice a day, and have been doing breathing treatments to get my lungs back to par. Yesterday was the fist day that I had without coughing and any flem! ( Yey! because I know flem is what everyone likes to read about, but there is just no other way to put it, when you go from a sinus infection and are trying to get all of that yuckiness out of your lungs!) 

Now that I have that set back behind me, and am physically ready to start working out again... My work schedule blew up! I am constantly going from the gym for either training clients, teaching my classes, or working front desk, to swim lessons. It is going to be so tough for me to want to also go back to the gym to work out! So I am recommitting to running, I am going to wake up and run Monday and Wednesday of this week. I know it is not the 3 times a week I committed to, but after being sick, I do not want to wear myself to thin. I will get 2 strength sessions in with Garrett this week, it is not as much as I would like, but again I do not want to get sick again, I am sure my body still and will need as much rest as it can get for the upcoming week. 

Garrett and I have been doing really good about not eating out everyday! Although this past week we did eat out twice, rather then the once I committed to. It was completely our fault, it was already 2 pm, neither of us had eaten, and we were both unprepared. Today we will be heading to fresh and easy to buy our chicken and veggies to prep for this upcoming week! I am super excited! I am also excited about the fact that I have been cooking at home more recently, and the family has like what i have been cooking! I will do anything to get them eating more then fast, processed, unhealthy foods, so it looks I need to buy double the chicken! ( since they won't let me pay rent, I figure this helps out and is giving back to the family the best that I can. I am so blessed to have the Hueburt/DeFore's as a second family) 

I know this week is kind of just a repeat of last weeks topic, but I was really upset and struggled with the fact that I got sick and couldn't commit to my fitness goals like I wanted to. I was mentally prepared to tackle this obstacle that has been in front of me, but I wasn't listening to my body and what it could physically do.

Hopefully this week goes a little better! Until next time, arrivederci!

Needing/ Finding Motivation

Last year I was training to run my first marathon. My training schedule was put on hold when I got my job working at WPA... Well it wasn't put on hold, but I did not make it a priority because I was already up, running,playing games, and activities with the kids for 12 hours. So when I got home, and was ready to get my running routine back on track, I hit the ground running... literally. I was hitting the pavement every morning .

My marathon training consisted of low miles at least 4 a day, cross training activities of  no less then 10 + miles on Saturdays, and my only rest day was Sunday. I was dedicated, and motivated... I had a goal to finish my marathon under 5 hours and I wanted to reach it. Sadly, I didn't reach my goal, I finished in 5 hours and 30 min, but considering the circumstances I feel like I did pretty well!

Getting down to it, I wore my body down fast, with not enough sleep or nutrients, I developed a stress fracture in my left femoral neck, which at first I only thought was a pulled hip flexor (I didn't find out it was a fracture until after I ran my marathon, it is kinda nerve racking because my leg could have snapped at any moment with that kind of pressure. )

<-----  This is a picture of my left femoral neck.The white blur is where there is bone swelling which is the number one sign of a fracture or break...When I got the results back, I was immediately put on crutches and bed rest... I was miserable. I thought that once I was cleared I was going to jump back into it like I never left, but that didn't happen. What actually happened is I became more paranoid then I have ever been, and I had s constant fear that my fracture was going to come back, I was going to snap my leg, and have to have a massive surgery. I have not had the confidence or the will power to get back into my routine of running and cross training.

Nike Women's Marathon October 2012 ----->

I am lacking motivation and am searching for it. I am not enough motivation for myself at the moment.
I have been drained mentally, physically exhausted and have had an over all feeling on being unhealthy. I have a very strange relationship with running, I love it but I hate it... and after sitting back and not doing it for months I am beginning
to realize how much I miss it, and how much I actually loved when it was just the open road, the sunrise and myself. My self esteem has hit close to an all time low, but I am getting ready to pick myself up, dust off my knees and try again.

I am done being unhappy... I want to look in the mirror and feel strong and confident again. I want to mentally feel ready for what ever comes my way. Last but not least I am tired of being sick! I went on a streak, I wasn't sick once until I was told to go on bed rest for my leg, and that is GREAT for me because I was the girl that got sick every 3 months. So it seems with my lack of training, the pattern has returned.

<----I found this picture on Tumblr, and it is what inspired to to write down and commit to my training once again. I can not sit here and complain about all the things that need to change and expect them to do as I wish without taking action.

I am ready to start my fitness journey again. This time I will be a little more cautious, and learn from past mistakes. Overall, I am ready, I know what I want and I am going to achieve it.

3 Fitness/ Health Goals

1. Get up and run 3 times a week, starting July 15th 
2. Strength train with Garrett ( Strength work, and Oly lifts)
3. Eat clean healthy foods, limit eating out to once a week